by ziggy on Wed May 19, 2010 1:59 pm
claudicici wrote:
....do you think it's your dad,Ziggy?....my dad's mom that was murdered came to me in a dream and it was very real...and there's other things too that happened that make me very much believe they can contact us if they want to...
Stangely enough my Dad died 25 years ago and I've felt him near me every day. We were very close. My Mother and I had a more difficult relationship. She died summer before last. There was much contention during her last days between her so-called boyfriend and the family etc. I had to choose between flying to her bedside and possibly getting there too late or letting her pass and then honoring her at the funeral. I chose the latter and was criticized heavily but I did an outstanding job of making sure she was remembered properly. I put together a beautiful video rememberance to music that I worked very had on. When the lady who was supposed to do my Mother's make up for the viewing didn't show - I pulled out my make up with my sisters by my side and I fixed the make up on her fragile shell of a body that was left lying in a casket. I knew exactly how she would have wanted it. I also knew that her significant other couldn't pick out a proper burial outfit if his life depended on it, so I brought a pretty pink silk blouse of mine that was more appropriate and that she would have loved. It was the last loving gesture I could give her without her saying SOMETHING to guilt trip me, LOL.
She loved her hummingbirds and always had the feeders hanging on our back deck so she could watch them.
I didn't feel anything after she died...not for months. It felt strange to be so disconnected. Then the hummingbird visits started. One would fly up close to me and just hover at eye level...it happened at my cottage; then at work; then I moved to a house 25 miles away and it happened there and I moved again to my current place and one comes into my little patio area.
Last Friday after work I decided to take my first dip in the condo pool...it sounded quiet - no obnoxious kids and I REALLY needed a stress reliever.
I was floating on my back looking at the intensely blue sky and marveling at how beautiful the green trees were against it and there was a hummingbird. In the solace of the moment...very quiet hovering reminder. It stayed close by the whole hour I was in the pool. I decided to get out - took one more underwater swim to the end and it was gone.
My sister died from the same thing my mother did last summer - almost one year later. It's so sad and so strange. I am waiting for her.